Losing sight of what really matters...
The autumn half term break has arrived - and I'm so glad its here. Its been a busy first term back looking at secondary school placements for son 3, college for son 1, new home ed curriculum for son 2 and making sure son 4 doesn't feel left out! But in all this busyness of life I seemed to have lost my sparkle, the reason for why I was working so hard... Life has been busy with 2 birthdays in the immediate family and 3 in the extended, plus our wedding anniversary (with more
Faith is not for the Fainthearted
If you have read my past posts, you will know that having my christian faith has not been easy. Believing in God has not made me exempt from trials or made for me an easy life here on Earth. I can remember praying that I would have great faith. I should have known from reading about Abraham (Genesis 22 - the father of faith) that this would not be an easy journey. I have prayed hard for things and it has not come to pass. I've had to trust God that what I asked for, was no
How God Provided us a Home
How we came to buy our home when we had nothing, How God planned the way and How God provided for us.. From our story here, we had to come off the property ladder to relocate. We had accepted this and hoped maybe things would change in the future but for now this was our only option. We did not make a huge amount on the sale and the money we did make then had to be re-invested into a new car - as our old one soon bit the dust when we arrived. Renting meant we could live in
God Provides - Help
Back in 2007 there was a recession, my husband managed to keep his job but his salary went down by £10K. This was a lot of money for us to loose. We had just bought a fixer upper, taken on a loan to do some work in the house and just had our third child. It could not have come at a worse time. We were so excited to have a house project, we enjoyed designing and creating a home. However, now it all had come to a halt. The money had run out and we were struggling to keep o
When a non-christian dies...
2 years ago today was the last time I saw my Grandad alive, I was with him when he passed and I was with him in his final days. My Grandad lived with us growing up, he was a very important figure in my life, at times it felt like he was the only one on my side. When I was younger I hoped that Grandad would never die and that he would definitely make a 100 and receive a birthday card from the Queen. Grandad died 2 months before his 100th birthday. He lived a good life and
Why I believe God is Good
I believe in God, I had an encounter of the Holy Spirit which cannot be explained in any other way nor made up in my mind because I wanted it to be true. I cannot deny what I know to be true but I have questioned is God good. When I'm suffering, facing injustice or been in the disappointment of receiving a no, to a much longed for prayer - and watching others receive it but not make the most of it - I've questioned. Is it wrong to question? I think its good to know what you
I am no stranger to things going wrong, disappointment, injustice etc. We live in a world where there is great sorrows and sadness but there are also great joys/happiness. Sometimes when something goes wrong, it can have the power to wipe out all the goodness and blessings I had received in that day and all I can focus on is that one thing. Then the blame comes, either myself - building up my own insecurities, dislike towards another person/system or God. This can keep thou
Christians living with depression
I am a spirit filled born again christian, I have a hope, a faith and know that I am accepted and loved. Yet, I also have a mental health illness. I have had depression, stress and anxiety on and off for almost 15 years now. There are times I'm on medication and treatment, and times when I'm not. There are good days and bad days but I am loved and accepted by God whatever day/season I face. I do not have depression because of unbelief, lack of faith or lack of understanding
No one knows what I'm going through...
There have been times in my life when I have felt extremely alone both before I became a Christian and after. Yes God has met my friendship needs but there have still been times when I can be surrounded by people and feel alone. I have depression which can twist my thinking or make me over-think. The biggest lie the enermy (Satan) whispers is that you're alone.. It can be presented as no one else has this problem, whats wrong with you? you deserve this, you can't possibly t